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Name: Beautiful
Location: Pune, India
Birthday: 11/10/1978
Gender: Male
Interests: Loves to talk ,to make friends as well as like to share thoughts,feelings ...intrested in astrology as well..likes to listen music
Expertise: play games like badminton ,tennis ..Can sing well
Occupation: Computer related
Industry: Computers (Software)
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Yahoo:  beautifulmind0010@yahoo.co.in
Member Since:
1/25/2005
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| Hi guys..
Writing after long time..i feel like I am on the seventh heaven rt now.. I am too happy…These days I was completely busy with my love life.. As few xanga frds wanted to know what happened after having my dialog with parents, I thought will write everything in detail.
After talking to parents I needed sm time for myself to find out what exactly went wrong… I started thinking from the day when I was not aware of sm girl with name “”. My routine was usual .. company at 10 ..checking mails ..having sm chat with colleagues and then back to work..Life was not great ..not bad although… then after few days I met her…when I first saw her ..I was normal ..means i didn’t find any kind of bells ringing around.. No filmi feeling…Slowly we started talking ..chatting..started sharing mails..She was very cheerful and smiling girl as well as beautiful .. Any guy would have fall in love with her very easily. She is very talkative as compared to me.. First I used to feel how she didn’t find smbody till now ..’coz she was really sweet girl.. May be I deserve her that’s why ..J
Slowly I started being very caring for her.. I didn’t understand why… gradually after 1 month I understood I was in love…JJ
We started going around without any kind of formal talks… we started talking on phone in the morning ,afternoon, eve ..everyday we used to meet… everyday we used to fight a lot.. everyday was too good.. There was no single day we didn’t hear each other or we didn’t see each other.
We used to talk a lot abt marriage . How and when we will get married .. Where we will go after marriage ..We had decided we will go to Europe .. how to collect money …each and everything we used to talk…small small issues we used to discuss.. She had become my BEST FRIEND unknowingly. I hardly had any good friends at that time…She taught me how to make friends…I was sm kinda loner .. she taught me to get socialize…
Basically She slowly became my everything my friend than girl friend ..best friend ..my sister ..my mother … my father as well .. She used to scold me a lot.. but at the same time I knew she used to love me lot. She never used to eat if we had fight..She used to have tears in her eyes .. if I used to walk away without talking to her after fight… She used to treat me like her baby…I never mind it ..Actually I used to enjoy it secretly … Slowly I got used to her…
But one day I don’t know what happen to me… when as usual we had fight..i hurt her by saying things which I should not have.. I said I want to break up…I don’t how and why I said it…
Then you all know we were not at all in touch with each other.. I deleted her from my contact list …deleted her SMS …(though I was not very happy doing this…may be ‘coz I used to miss her but I did not admitted it to myself.. I was very arrogant at that time ..While deleting her from msngr smwhere I knew at the back of my mind that she is added in my other two Ids. So was able to delete her from the a/c which I use more frequently…)
I knew I will never be able to love anybdy else in my life .. 'coz scorpio hardly falls in love. ..and if they do ..they never come out of it...
But still after talking to parents and after thinking a lot I decided will go and talk to her..
I have learned and guys I want all of you to know that
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people understand the worth of others only when someone is gone from their lives....and then u cant do anything to bring them back....finally all that remains is an emptiness...a feeling that can only be expressed through tears....
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I read this smwhere on Xanga only..I found it absolutely true…
Those days I tried my best to be with my friends … tried to enjoy my life with movies ..outings… I was doing all this ‘coz I don’t wanted to miss her…I tried all this very veryyy hard…BUT L No Use .. If I used to go any restaurant I used to remember both of us sitting ..either talking each other by holding hands or arguing on sm issue… If I used to go for any movie…same there also…I know this sounds crazy ..But that is what I went thru….
I used to feel
Why She didn’t come back…
Is She missing me ??
What is She doing right now??
How can she live without me ??
Am I so bad? ?
I knew “silence speaks louder than words.....”
I knew what must have bothered her ….
I literally used to have tears in my eyes in the night….when I used to try to fall sleep.
I knew I was the one who screwed it up..
When I decided to meet her ..i was damn tensed..damn man….I was never tensed so much that too to meet my sweetheart….I was tensed how she will react..but I had decided any how I will meet her..
Finally I met her near her company …guys I will tell you when I saw her ..she was looking amazing…She was looking true feminine….
For 5 mins..i didn’t say anything …both were silent …Then said first word “Sorry for everything” I told her “I was stupid to do all this”… I said “I like you being angry on me//..why you didn’t come and scolded me as usual… I missed it…..i missed you…” …Dialog continued…
Then that evening I took her to my place to meet my parents.. ..
My parents especially my grandmother liked her a lottt….Now as usual we meet everyday…JJJJ….Now I feel yess!!…THIS IS LIFE MAN !!!!!….
Guys I am too lucky…….and I hope everybody gets lucky similarly…
I would like to tell everybody from my past experience…
Guys u will get everything in the world..money ..house..job …everything ..but not the true love..Only few ppl get it …so guys preserve it…Never never nerver let them go…..
Its always better to be LATE than NEVER…
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| Guys read this joke..it really made me laugh so much...
Enjoyyy !!!!!!!!
Sachin Tendulkar and Sourav Ganguly, now pretty old guys, 75 and 80 years old, are sitting on a park bench feeding pigeons and talking about cricket, like they do every day.
Sachin turns to Sourav and says, "Do you think there's cricket in heaven?"
Ganguly thinks about it for a minute and replies, "I dunno. But let's make a deal: if I die first, I'll come back and tell you if there's cricket in heaven, and if you die first, you do the same."
They shake hands on it and sadly, a few months later, poor Sachin passes on.
One day soon afterwards, Ganguly is sitting there feeding the pigeons by himself when he hears a voice whisper, "Sourav... Sourav!"
Ganguly responds,"Sachin! Is that you?" "Yes it is, Sourav," whispers Sachin's ghost.Ganguly, still amazed, asks, "So, is there cricket in heaven?"
"Well," says Sachin, "I've got good news and bad news." "Gimme the good news first," says Ganguly. Sachin says,
"Well... there is cricket in heaven."
Ganguly says, "That's great! What news could be bad
Enough to ruin that!?"
Sachin sighs and whispers, "You're going to open the innings
Along with me in friday's match."
:):):):)
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| Yesterday i left early from the company...thought will go home and will take some rest.. i was feeling somewhat uncomfortable ..At home, i had tea and sm snacks..felt bit better.. then electricity went away..
thought I will go in balcony ..will feel fresh..I was standing in our balcony and my mother came from kitchen and she wanted to ask me if i need smthing more to eat..but then she was standing behind me for 5-10 mins and i didnt realize this. she put her hand on my shoulder and said nothing..When i turned back..my eyes were full of tears..smhow i tried to hide them 'coz anyways there was only candle light. But u know how is mother..she could feel that..my mum hold my hand and asked me "What happened beta?? I can see sm things are bothering you..tell me so that i can help you ..". When she asked me this i was not in the condition to hide anything but my feelings wanted sm outlet ..o.w in all other circumstatnces i would have controlled them... we both sat down on floor in the balcony only, I put my head on her shoulder and smhow felt like crying more loudly..
At the same time my dad came there...he didnt ask me anything but smhow he got the idea..he stand up there and started having look far away..may be trying to watch poona in dark ..
Eventually i started talking infront of them ..i told them how i started liking sm girl ..how eventually i fall in ove with her...how i got used to her..and how we had arguments on small issues..how things started falling apart.. I told them that we had plans to get married this year ..anyways I was going to talk to you abt her…
I told them that i haven’t seen after 3rd Feb ..not even listened her voice..
After saying all this, I got tensed abt how parents will react..'coz they didnt have any idea ..may be they could have guessed it but i had never talked to them abt her...
My mother asked me everything abt her ..who is she?? what she has done??...and all...
then there was complete silence for 10 mins...
Slowly she started telling me what relationship means...how it suppose to handle...how men dont pay attention to small problem but which are very important in relationship...
She said:- "I will ask you three questions if you can answer to any one of these as "YES" then you can decide what to do abt ur relationship.. ..but if none of these is YES ,you will have to listen to us.."
I said:- (with bit of fearness) Yes..sure..ask me..
She : - First, What if the same thing would have happen 10 years after marriage?? What will you do? Divorse??
Me :- Offcourse NO..
She:- okk..Second,What if smbody does same thing to ur sister?(I have elder sister..she has one baby ...:))
Me:- I said(smwat shouted) what r u saying? I cannt even think of this..Nooo..I will kill that bustard..
She:- Last one ..If same way the way u behaved with her ,she would have done it ..then is it ok for you??
Me:- Noo(with sigh...)
After this , my eyes really opened up and then i realised i am doing behaving completely non – sense to sm other person..
My mother said that not as ur mother but as ur frd i would like to ask smthing see beta..there is no such force in relationship but still sm rules do apply ...you have been together with her for last 3 years.. I know u must had smwhat physical relations with her??
here the most important question got pop up::
I got shocked as well as got afraid too..
she said.. yes???.. asnwer this question...
I took 2-3 minutes and answered slowly yes..but were in limits...
She said .. See ...you both just cannt leave each other like that ...Its ur mistake...be responsible for ur reactions..
she asked me what u have told her ..what is final decision...this question made me feel guilt more...'coz we never talked abt this after that day...we had big fight..then i didnt talked to her ...nor both of us tried to meet other one..( though on back of my mind she is always there….at night ..in morning ..afternoon and night ..i miss her like hell..)
When my mother listened this..She got upset as well felt bad alott...she told me to go to her and clear everything and asked me to take responsibilty in the sense she wanted me to talk to her and do patch up..'coz she said you will never love anybdy else in this life..i know you..She must be having smthing which has make you feel in love with her..and as well as things which she expected were quite natural.....Contradictory, if she would have not demanded such expectation, i would have find her very common girl..beta..she knows what she wants...She is not afraid or coward and dont expect her to support you if u r wrong.. I will be lucky to have such daughter-in-law..If u r wrong then accept it..don’t try to prove her wrong by remembering small issues…(Actually infront of them i tried to convience them how i was right smwhat and how she was wrong)
after saying she just left inside ..her voice was bit low...may be she didnt like my behaviour ..may be she was hurt 'coz of me..smwhat she might have ashamed of me for my beaviour ..
In complete this conversation..my dad was mum..He told me... He keeps on listening such stories everyday..but he said I was proud of you ..smwhere i had an idea smthing going on and that too for 2-3 years..and I was quite sure that once you have make sm commitment ,you will have to stick to it..He said if you think you will move on and will forget this..then i am sure 10 years down the line, u will face this again with other person ...what u will do..He said.. common!! When guy gets 25 years or older ..he has to take his resposibilities..You have to go to her .. show her that you will not run away but will be on her side in good as well as bad times...let me and ur mother be proud of you !!!
Then he just patted me on my back ..looked at me ...and then he left from there as he had sm work to do..
After this, whole night i was continuously thinking abt my parents and abt my girl...I thought i am extremely lucky as my parents didnt scold me as other parents do like what have you done?? Is this ur age of doing all this?? Stay away from her ..u r not mature...Concentrate on ur job.. and blah blah continues...(I have heard all these common comments from my frd's parents.. )
Then I decided I will take my responsibilites in each and every manner ..and decided will make all things to fall on right places..
I will make them to be proud of me ..not only now ..but on each and every turn in my life….
After talking to them and writing this blog ..I am feeling much more relaxed and smwhat feel I can see myself in mirror with pride ..’coz I found the right way !!
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| Today again I had big fight with her.. Oh Nooo… I just cant stay like this .. Will write next time what has happened ..but just now trying to find out what to do ???? how can i get things back on track... | | |
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...After reading this ,you can check out whether you have found the right sweetheart 
...'coz i have mentioned 24 reasons to find out PERFECT GF 
. If you feel the same way as noted in points then yes MAN YOU ARE IN LOVE with her ...